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→ Leave a comment here with your prompt. Because it's Sam's birthday, I'm going to say that any Sam-centric prompts are okay, even if there's not much hurt/comfort in them.
→ In your prompt, please state your desired characters or pairings. All genres/pairings welcome, but no real-person prompts.
→ Prompts can be as short or detailed as you like. Remember though - more detail means less wriggle room for the writer, which might lower the chances of someone picking up your prompt.
→ Go through the prompts! If you find one you like, write a fic for it. There's no limit to how many users can reply to a prompt, or how many prompts someone can write for.
→ When replying to a prompt with your comment-fic, put ‘filled’ in your subject line and then anything else you want, like a title if you have one/part numbers. It’s not a big deal if you forget this step, but it will make it easier for people to find your fic.
→ Anon posting enabled.
→ NO SPOILERS FOR UNAIRED EPISODES.
→ Play nice - no flaming and no character bashing, period. Any comments that break this rule will be deleted without warning.
→ Feedback is catnip for writers. Leave some author-love!
→ No spam comments.
→ Contact one of the mods if you have a question.
→ Spread the Sam love - pimp this meme! Just copy and paste the code below:
→ Have fun!
→ In your prompt, please state your desired characters or pairings. All genres/pairings welcome, but no real-person prompts.
Example A: “Sam, Dean, gen, set in season 2. Sam has a vision and passes out. Cue caring!Dean and limp!Sam.”→ Post as many prompts as you like - but one prompt per comment. If you've got a couple, comment with each separately.
Example B: “Sam/Dean, trauma. Sam is injured on a hunt, Dean freaks out when he thinks Sam might be dead.”
→ Prompts can be as short or detailed as you like. Remember though - more detail means less wriggle room for the writer, which might lower the chances of someone picking up your prompt.
→ Go through the prompts! If you find one you like, write a fic for it. There's no limit to how many users can reply to a prompt, or how many prompts someone can write for.
→ When replying to a prompt with your comment-fic, put ‘filled’ in your subject line and then anything else you want, like a title if you have one/part numbers. It’s not a big deal if you forget this step, but it will make it easier for people to find your fic.
→ Anon posting enabled.
→ NO SPOILERS FOR UNAIRED EPISODES.
→ Play nice - no flaming and no character bashing, period. Any comments that break this rule will be deleted without warning.
→ Feedback is catnip for writers. Leave some author-love!
→ No spam comments.
→ Contact one of the mods if you have a question.
→ Spread the Sam love - pimp this meme! Just copy and paste the code below:
→ Have fun!
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anonymous wrote After a Narrowly-Averted-Apocalypse, an old friend from Stanford runs into Sam Winchester at a gas station. He's surprised/disturbed by what he sees.
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anonymous wrote A witch the boys meet on a case decides to cast a spell on Sam as a gift for his birthday (she notices the guys have some communication hang ups)--he will not be able to inhibit what he says for a full day. Basically everything he thinks and feels comes spewing out of his mouth without his control. Including many thoughts of self-loathing and doubting Dean could ever love him the same after all that's happened, any other things you want, etc. Sam is mortified and feels exposed and stupid.
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Re: Filled: Howl, Part 2/2 (PG-13 for lots of swearing)
Sam isn't stupid. He knows that he has to sleep sometime. But he has spent large portions of his life as a high functioning insomniac; he can put it off a hell of a lot longer than most. Especially here, where high functioning is considered being able to feed yourself, swallow your spit, speak instead of bark, and give some warning that you are working up to a violent freak out instead of randomly stabbing people with pencils while giggling. With those kind of standards, Sam has found he can push two weeks, sometimes even almost three, subsiding on disjointed cat naps during the day, before he needs some long term shut eye.
He usually knows its time when he starts seeing Dean full on instead of just hearing him make snide, snarky comments in his head. It hurts to see his brother, even as a hallucination, in this place. Cuts Sam right to the bone to see the sad worried looks Dean shoots his way, like he still cares about Sam, still likes him and is proud of him and trusts him. Like he still wants to be his brother and make sure Sam is all right.
Then, under Dean's sad gaze, Sam will stage a freak out, start throwing shit and taking clumsy swings at the air, shouting nonsense about ghosts until the aides come and stick him full of needles, drug him down so deep that his mind can barely form dreams of muted swirls of colors let along hold a conversation with the Devil. They keep him down for two, three days. Three days of the worst kind of sleep, but it gets him by.
It won't get him by forever, though. Sam's been through a few cycles already and each time, he gets less out of the enforced slumber. His muscles and joints always ache now from the constant movement and nightly exercising, tiny tears that multiply and never get a chance to heal. He's lost weight, slurs on the rare occasion he speaks, and his burning eyes have more or less completely lost the ability to focus, rendering the world in blobs and swirls. As for thinking, well that doesn't really happen after the first week with no sleep. All he has his stubborn doggedness to keep him up and moving until Dean starts eating lunch in front of him.
Sam knows he's unraveling, slowly but surely, because it's getting harder and harder to remember that the Dean in his head is just Sam's mind reacting to stress and loneliness. It's getting harder to convince himself that it isn't Dean's ghost, haunting him, when he keeps catching half glimpses of his brother out of the corner of his overtired eyes. It's getting harder to remember that he doesn't want Dean here, not at all, even though the loneliness is almost worse than the never ending exhaustion.
Sam knows that this endless sleeplessness is just a different way to break himself on the Devil's altar. But Sam isn't planning on doing it forever. No, he's aiming for just long enough to give his brother the time he needs to save the world. Because that's what Dean does, saves people, saves Sam.
Sam just wishes Dean would hurry the fuck up before Wolfman isn't the only one howling heartbreak into the night.
*end*
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This: And Sam, well, he's a sucker for reason, always has been. It had been his go to strategy as a child for trying to rest at least a little bit of control of his life from his father and Dean. is so Sam. It kind of makes me cry a little.
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(Anonymous) 2010-05-04 01:07 pm (UTC)(link)But of course one of those Deans he sees is going to be the real Dean, getting him out, right?
Lovely fic, touches of humor in Wolf-guy, amidst all the angst.
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Thanks for reading, I'm glad you liked it :)
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*stares at typo in excerpt and twitches*
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I have such an addiction to the boys dealing with mental illnesses or just mental hospitals*g*
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so good. and damn, but you can write.
loved it. amazing job ♥♥♥
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its the alt key and 3 on the number pad (the side) at the same time.
also, & hearts ; (with no spaces)
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