Fic: And this Great Blue World of Ours, Chapter 11

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Title: And this Great Blue World of Ours (Chapter 11)
Author: vail_kagami
Beta: minviendha 
Characters (overall): Dean, Castiel, Sam, plus a number of angels and demons
Rating (overall): NC-17
Warnings (overall): violence, torture, drug use, insanity, mentions of rape
Spoilers: Going AU during episode 5.18: Point of No Return. Vague spoilers for season six.
Words (this chapter): 11,192
Summary: A man wakes up in a ruined wasteland, without memories, without a name, without knowing the strange guy who claims he used to be an angel, or that he once had a little brother. All he knows is that the world is dying, everyone is lying to him and that somehow, somewhere, something went terribly wrong. Because someone said Yes when they should have said No, and someone else paid the price.

Masterpost


He’d once promised Sam he wouldn’t lie to him.


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Comments

[marziebarz.livejournal.com]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH YOU CANT LEAVE IT THERE!!! HOW DID HE FAIL IN THE END??? 2 more weeks on the edge of my seat for me haha ^_^

Suppose I should start going through in order now, huh. So can I just say that if I'm wrong about what I'm about to say I'm gonna feel like the worlds biggest idiot? I mean I'm pretty sure I'm right, but...little disclaimer =P

Approximately 6 lines from the beginning I thought "Is that...no way. It can't be." And then Jena said she was bored and I was internally screaming "GABRIELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY" because I realized he died AFTER 5.18, so he could totally be there. And then he (she?) said he'd had a vessel for like 500 years and it solidified it for me. I love Gabriel so much, because I think he does try to help, in his own way, and I really hope he sticks around =D

And the devil is still my brother. I know you’re the last person who’d understand this, but not everyone is eager to strike down their own family.

OH GOD MY HEART. This just hurts. Because Dean used to be last in line to strike down his family, and now everything is just SO WRONG and he’s making GABRIEL seem like a better person than him, a little bit. GABRIEL.
That's just so wrong on so many different levels. And it actually made the Interlude hurt even more, for me, because Dean completely gave up on Sam and just assumed he would give in, and even when Sam broke so horribly and totally he never said 'Yes'.

Castiel wished he could think of something to say to comfort his friend, but there was nothing at all.He’d once promised Sam he wouldn’t lie to him.

I officially love their relationship in this story more than I have ever loved any relationship ever. Its like everything that was great about Cas and Dean turned into everything that was great about Cas and Sam, and then got better. And I think I actually like it more than Dean and Sam's relationship a little, because Dean would have said something empty that was meant to be comforting and at this point I don't think it actually would have helped anything. I'm a fan of the brutal honesty.

Just, the whole interlude was fantastic. I mean, I always love seeing Cas and Sam, but I dunno, this was just brilliant beyond belief to me. Cas fighting himself over what his priorities should be, knowing he should put the world first but wanting SOMEBODY to put Sam first, was really powerful to me. I think that's a lot of who Cas is in this story - he knows what he should have at the top of his list, but I think really the top of his list will always be Sam. And always having the thought that Sam could have given in at the back of his mind, but at the same time refusing to think about it when he finally gets close to finding his friend. And stupid Gabriel and his stupid thing about everything going according to the plan and everything Castiel does being futile. And Cas just sitting in the middle of the street with Sam's dead body, waiting for Lucifer to open his eyes. And Cas promising Sam at the end, so reminiscent of Dean; this promise seemed more true to me, though, if only because we all know how well Dean was keeping his promise right then.

OH LORD THAT WAS LONG. I'm gonna stop now. Um, just, this is AWESOME AND FANTASTIC AND I LOVE IT BEYOND BELIEF AND I CANT WAIT FOR MORE!!! Also, was purgatory and the souls gonna be part of this before the last few episodes of this season? Because if yes, KUDOS, and if not, way to tie stuff in. Its awesome either way. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS STORY =D

[vail-kagami.livejournal.com]

Wow, what a comment! Thank you!

Concerning Jena you are... totally not wrong. And it's not the last we've seen of her.

The thing with purgatory came in as the sixth season progressed. I've had this story roughly mapped out from the beginning, but it often happens that I want to move from plot point A to plot point B and realise that I need to add some plot points C, D, F and Y to get there. Or in other words: I knew the guys would have to go against Lucifer in one way or another, but I didn't really know how until I got there.

The story is disided into two parts in my mind, and the next chapter will be the finale of the first part. The downside of that is that I will take an extended break after it. I'll keep writing, but I won't upload before I have a certain number of words (worth three chapters or something) so I won't have as much stress keeping up with the posting. The good news is, I'm nearly done with the several big bangs I have taken this year and will have more time for this story, so it won't take that long. I hope.

Especially since everyone liking this story will want to skin me alive after the next chapter.

Anyway, thank you so much for this comment! It made my day!

[marziebarz.livejournal.com]

Oh man, you can't say I'm gonna want to skin you alive right after you say you're taking an extended break! SO NO COOL. And wow, this is gonna be a long one, isn't it. I think I'm gonna have to re-read it during your little hiatus! And I'm so excited we get more Jena!Gabe. I think I'm just gonna stick with calling him Gabe so I don't confuse myself =P but it's awesome he'll be around ^_^

Fair warning, this story gives me lots of feeling, so I might end up leaving ENORMOUS comments on all the chapters as I re-read it. Or possibly writing like a paper on it or something and sending it to you in a message. I really wish I could use this for some kind of school assignment...I should find a course it would work for haha.

[vail-kagami.livejournal.com]

Wouldn't it be awesome if fanfic analysis was a class in school? During my own school days we once had an assignment in English class (which I always got bad makes in) that had us analyse a picture of our own choice and I chose a pic of my then favorite artist I knew from the internet. (A very manly and macho classmate of mine chose a screenshot of Kirk and Spock from Star Trek and talked about their epic friendship. It was awesome!) /random

Let me just tell you one thing: If there is an author out there who minds enourmous comments, it's not me. I'm delighted to read them, and I'm very curious to learn what you think about my story!

I'm also very happy the fic has such an impact on you! I hesitated a long time before posting it because I didn't think I could interest anyone in a fic that's all about Dean and Cas running through a wasteland while really being all about Sam who isn't even present. As it turns out, I only have a few readers, but the ones I got are awesome! Thank you so much!

[marziebarz.livejournal.com]

Confession...I read the first two chapters mostly waiting for Sam to show up, but then I somehow got completely and utterly hooked and I love it just the way it is now. /guilt

If fanfic/tv show analysis was a major, I would 4.0 those classes SO FAST. But no, I have to (hopefully) major in something useful like Comp Sci and barely pull a 2.2 in calculus. College doesn't play to my strengths =P

[vail-kagami.livejournal.com]

Nothing wrong with going into the fic like that. I've done it often enough myself.

Having little knowledge of the American college system I only have a vague idea what you're talking about, but I completely agree!