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mentholpixie.livejournal.com

Title: Exodus
Author:

mentholpixie
Characters: Sam, Dean, Bobby
Word Count: 800ish
Summary: Sam goes for a walk. Genesis 'verse stand-alone. Post-Hell AU

mentholpixie.livejournal.com

Title: Lightning
Author:

mentholpixie
Rating: T
Genre/Pairing: Gen
Word Count: 2000ish
Characters: Sam, Dean, Bobby
Summary: Sammy doesn't make sense. That's just a fact of life, like the sky is blue and witches are gross.

foolscapper.livejournal.com

Author: foolscapper
Artist: quickreaver
Wordcount: 8,400+
Rating: Teen to Mature
Pairings: N/A, Gen (platonic soul mates)
Summary: For the Sam Winchester Big Bang on tumblr this year! "Bar fight. Don't tell Dean. I don't want to hear it. You just... You understand best. You get it best, y'know? You get me." Death brings Sam back — sort of. A domestic, curtain-fic sort of piece that explores different sections of what makes Sam Winchester. An alternative to S07E01, where raising our boy's soul doesn't go exactly to plan.

Warning for psychological issues, mental anguish, mentions of torture, and so on. Also has minor self-harm (unintentional harm) and violence.

READ ON ARCHIVEOFOUROWN
READ ON LIVEJOURNAL
ART MASTERPOST (potential spoilers ahoy)

mentholpixie.livejournal.com

Title: Nobody's Home
Author:

mentholpixie
Rating: Mature
Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester, John Winchester
Word count: 1800ish
Summary: All he knows is that he has to get away. (Cursed/amnesiac!Sam)

mentholpixie.livejournal.com

Title: Genesis
Author:

mentholpixie
Rating: Mature
Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester
Word count: 2800ish
Summary: Today is a bad day. Good thing Sam has Dean to help him through it. Post-Cage AU.
Warnings: Potentially disturbing imagery. References to self-harm. Swearing.

annie46.livejournal.com

Title: Who Are You?
AuthorAnnie46
Characters Sam & Dean – Others
Rating: PG13 – disturbing imagery - language

Any warnings: Future fic – possible spoilers for everything including season 11

Summary She doesn't know who he is and why he is here; his mind is obviously gone and he isn't making any sense. It's almost like he is two different people...he doesn't say much either just one word repeated over and over - Dean...

A/N - This was written for the Sammy Big Bang and then, due to the stresses of real life, I completely and utterly – for the first time ever – forgot to enter it!! Therefore I missed the boat and missed some awesome art – but it was written so here it is!!

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crimsonepitaph.livejournal.com

Title: There's someone in my head (but it's not me)
Genre: Gen
Characters: Sam Winchester
Word Count: ~ 900
Rating: R
Spoilers: Through season 5.
Summary: Sam has been in the Cage a long time.
Warnings: dark themes, horror, psychological torture, torture, suicidal ideation
Disclaimer: All recognizable characters and mythology elements belong to their creators.

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foolscapper.livejournal.com

AUTHOR’S NOTES: A horrible but also much more positive sequel to The Long Calendar. PLEASE HEED THE WARNINGS BELOW. this one ended up much longer than expected, haha. It’s also more detailed and less experimentally short-winded. Definitely got a different sort of style than The Long Calendar, but I think it works better for the topics inside. IDK. ENJOY???

Warnings: This story has mental illness, trauma, a much less interpretive subject of rape/non-con, self-deprecation, animal death, self-inflicted injuries. I will add more if I can remember other ones, but that should be the bulk of it.

SUMMARY: Sam is back from two thousand years in the Cage, in a bad mental state with no real conection to normalcy anymore, and Dean tries to help him cope.

Sam nods. "Sam sounds like a sharp name. Sounds like you could bleed out on it. You said it was mine?"

"... Yeah. It's yours."

Sam hums, looking down at the bandages, at Dean and then his battered fingertips, individually wrapped and cared for. "Sounds like a bad word."

Sam never forgot Dean's name. It's the one thing that never seemed to change.

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foolscapper.livejournal.com

Warnings: Torture, implied possible non-con/rape, trauma, alcoholism, dark themes, mental illness.

Summary: Post-Swan Song AU. One time a month every month on Earth, Sam leaves the Cage and visits Dean for one day. Heed the warnings. A little mentally hurt!Dean, a lot of mentally/physically hurt!Sam (sort of physically, anyway, but off-screen?). It's all gen! Platonic brother closeness here.

The first month Sam had returned from the Cage, Dean was sitting on the couch drinking a cold beer, trying to help the hangover he’d inflicted on himself the night before — one month, exactly, after Sam had jumped. Now, the son-of-a-bitch was sitting on the floor right in front of him with blood on his clothes and a wild, confused look in his eye. He scooped him up (he should have fucking tested him with silver, holy water, whatever, doesn’t fucking matter) and cradled him; said Sam’s name over and over, disbelieving, at a loss. Sam smiled and laughed, and clutched him back.

"What the fuck, man?! What the fuck?!"

"I don’t know," Sam rasped, "I don’t know, I don’t know—"

Castiel didn’t have good news, when Dean called for him.

Read the rest over HERE!

indiachick.livejournal.com

Title: Sixteen Snapshots From The House of Pachinko
Characters: Sam, Dean, appearances by Dr. Robert and Eva (6.10), Hallucifer, original characters
Warning: insanity, anthropomorphic-spirit-thing POV, butchered Japanese
Pairings: gen(cest?)
Words: ~7000
Summary: Dean can power up a whole city with his quick hands and crazy energy. Sam’s barely keeping a light bulb lit for the sake of his brother. This is how they are, and they are kind of okay, except when they’re not.
Living above a pachinko parlor in Chinatown, Sam and Dean adapt in different ways to the pile of crap that’s brought them there. Unbeknownst to them, they are being watched. Some of the watchers are benevolent, some not very, but all of them are curious.

A/N: Written for

ohsam s hurt/comfort fic challenge, as a fill for this prompt.

[LJ]
[A03]

duckondebut.livejournal.com

Tag to SPN 9.03! What can I say, this season is brill. It's like the glory days of s6 all over again.

... So yeah. Remember that story I wrote where Ezekiel had the best of intentions and Sam still got screwed in the deal? This is not that story.

Title: Locus

Author:

duckondebut (emmram)

Words: ~1,800

Summary: There are five little outcasts in a hole in the middle of America... (although Sam's pretty sure there's a sixth.)

Warnings: SPOILERS for s9 upto 9.03: I'm No Angel. Swearing, gore, some violence, angst, serious mind-fuckery, weirdness, metaphor-abuse, present-tense.

Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural or any of its characters.

duckondebut.livejournal.com

Tag to Supernatural 9.01! Also, first completed fic in over a year. Very rusty. And it shows.

Title: neoplasia

Author: duckondebut (emmram)

Summary: Sam was, and Sam… wasn’t.

Words: ~1,000

Warnings: SPOILERS for 9.01: I Think I’m Gonna Like It Here, metaphor-abuse, and uh… that’s it, really. Also a lot of this is from Ezekiel’s PoV, so.

Disclaimer: I don’t own Supernatural or any of its characters.

indiachick.livejournal.com

Title: Delicate Arguments [Of Faith and Murder]
Characters: Sam, Dean, peripheral Bobby, mentions of Jessica
Wordcount: 4000
Genre: gen
Warnings: disturbing imagery, suicide attempt, graphic violence, angst(?)
Rating: PG 13
Summary: Pilot AU. Following Jessica’s death, Sam drops off the grid. Dean searches everywhere for his brother but finds only a breadcrumb trail of blood that leads nowhere. Finally, a group of hunters track Sam down to Waycross, Georgia; and Dean has thirty minutes to save Sam, or kill him.
Notes: Written for the Summer of Evil challenge on evilsam_spn, where I failed miserably to make Sam all eeeevil. This ended up being more Sam!angst and hurt than anything else...
This thing is about insanity, and blind belief, and the stuff in Houses of the Holy. Houses of the Holy continues to break my heart for Sam to this day.

Concrit is adored :)

But he’s looking at the bubbles, Sam is. With some childish wonder. He’s looking at the bubbles and he’s choking, floundering, and that’s when he sees the angel.

brightly-lit.livejournal.com

Title: Three Times Dean Went Crazy and One Time Sam Did
Author:

brightly_lit
Rating: PG-13 for language, angst, mild violence, disturbing concepts/situations
Word Count: ~3,500
Genre: gen, wee!chesters, teen!chesters, h/c, angst, hurt!Sam, brotherly love
Characters: Sam, Dean, John
Summary: This is about wee!Sam and teen!Dean and times when their messed-up lives pushed them too far--this is not a feel-good fic.

Dad had had to test them both to make sure the shifter hadn’t replaced one of them with itself. Late that night in their room, 6-year-old Sam had stared at the bandage over where his father had cut his arm with a silver knife, and asked Dean quietly, “Have I been bad?”

portraitofafool.livejournal.com

Title: Dust & Shadow
Author:

portraitofafool
Artist:

culper355
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to Supernatural, it is the sole property of its respective network and creators. I am making no money from this and no infringement is intended.
Warnings: AU, death, global pandemic, graphic depictions of violence & physical illness, horror, language
Author's Notes: Written for the

spn_j2_bigbang. Many thanks to

culper355 for the fantastic art she made me and for not getting totally fed up with my neurotic, writery ways. Also, thanks to

lustmordred for doing the edit on this.

Summary: When Sam and Dean are young children, a sample of the plague escapes from its lab, intent on shaking hands with everyone it meets. As the years pass, the Winchesters grow up while the world falls down around them. Trained by their father to be soldiers, the Winchesters and a few others wage an impossible war against an invisible enemy that everyone fears. After a tragedy leaves them alone and left for dead, the brothers come to rely on one another more than ever before. Always close, they grow even closer despite the shadow of the Black Death that lurks in the wings, waiting for a turn to dance.

Link to fic: Fic Master Post
Link to art: Art Master Post

nblaque-impala.livejournal.com

Title: WHEN YOU STUMBLE (i'll hold you up)
Author:

nblaque_impala
Warnings/Rating: Language, PG-13.
Summary: Dean hadn't paid much thought to meeting the neighbors, but in what little time he'd spent dwelling on the thought, he certainly hadn't envisioned it like this: a happy couple at the door to his front, and his little brother having a panic attack on the stairs behind him. Because, clearly, nothing says 'welcome to the neighborhood' like a little bit of hyperventilation.

A/N: Finally got round to posting another update to the Nostalgia!'verse, featuring a post-hell Sam that finds himself back in the body of his eighteen-year-old self. This is what I like to class as cuddly gen, featuring lets of hugging and bed sharing but no Sam/Dean romance... or romance of any kind, actually. Not a lot of plot, here. Sorry, folks!

WHEN YOU STUMBLE (i'll hold you up) | nostalgia 'verse masterpost

princess-aleera.livejournal.com

Title: The Time-Stamps: One Life With One Dream on Repeat Part 5
Author:

princess_aleera
Word count: ~ 700
Spoilers: A coda to an alternative season 6, so spoilers throughout
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: angst, hurt/comfort, more angst, guilty!Cas, broken-wall!Sam with all the horror that entails, mentions of torture. No fix in this chapter, sorry.
Disclaimer: Don’t own, don’t sue.
Characters: Castiel, Dean, Sam
Pairings: Gen, Castiel!POV
A/N: Title from 'Mowgli’s Road' by Marina and the Diamonds. NB: This !verse is generally Dean and Cas!centric, but this is both Sam!whumpy AND it could technically be read as a stand-alone; as a coda to Sam's wall breakage at the end of s6. I hope you guys enjoy :)

Summary: Where Castiel tells his story.
Masterpost | Prompt post

(Castiel is furious at himself.)

duckondebut.livejournal.com

Title: Convergence (2/?)

Author: emmram

Fandom: Supernatural (gasp!)

Summary: Your regular End!verse AU wherein the end of the world is just the beginning of a brand new journey. Except it’s not quite that simple.

Notes: For the ever-wonderful veliseraptor (minviendha) for her birthday. This was supposed to be a short End!verse hurt!Sam drabble, and instead grew into a bit of a monster that I was forced to chop into bits. How many bits, I’m not quite sure yet. But I hope you like it!

Warnings: SPOILERS for s5; elements of later seasons, including bits of s8, come in later. Violence, gore, character death, metaphor-abuse. Also, I’m really, really rusty, so—yeah. It will all become clear! Really!

( Part Two )

duckondebut.livejournal.com

Title: Convergence (1/?)

Author: emmram (duckondebut)

Fandom: Supernatural (gasp!)

Summary: Your regular End!verse AU wherein the end of the world is just the beginning of a brand new journey. Except it’s not quite that simple.

Notes: For the ever-wonderful veliseraptor (

minviendha) for her birthday. This was supposed to be a short End!verse hurt!Sam drabble, and instead grew into a bit of a monster that I was forced to chop into bits. How many bits, I’m not quite sure yet. But I hope you like it!

Warnings: SPOILERS for s5; elements of later seasons, including bits of s8, come in later. Violence, gore, metaphor-abuse. Also, I’m really, really rusty, so—yeah. It will all become clear! Really!

heartverse.livejournal.com

HEARTVERSE

Authors

shangrilada

familybizness
Rating: R
Warnings: rape, alcoholism, physical abuse, drug use, gratuitous and likely often incorrect medical information, torture, foul language, excessive hilarity
Authors' Note: CurtainFic

The thing about Hell is that nobody tells you what happens after (until the Winchesters, no one knew there was an after).

After Dean grabs his little brother--broken lungs, broken mind, broken soul and all--from the Cage, they're unceremoniously forced into retirement. This is great for Sam, who somehow, to Dean's amazement, manages to find really innocent, genuine pleasure in waffles, cooking show marathons, and curling up with his nebulizer at the end of the day, but metaphorical (everything is metaphorical now) hell for Dean. Without hunting, he's tense, miserable, and drinking himself into blackouts or rages, both of which have him waking up with the itching, biting feeling that he's doing Sam more harm than good.

Sam's struggling to breathe through nightmare after nightmare until Dean finds him Christa, a therapist who's damn good at what she does, and what she does expands from helping Sam to helping Sam while comforting Dean, and then to helping Sam while comforting Dean and then removing Dean's clothes. So Sam's pretty content, seeing two of his favorite people (God, he loves Christa and God God God he loves when Dean smiles) all over each other, and that's not exactly hindered by Christa's daughter who gives him his meds and he swears sees down to his damn (maybe not so broken) soul, and then there's that angel in the trench coat who holds him at night and lets him cry in Enochian and gives Sam soft kisses down his jawline.

Everything's so much better than it should be, and then one day Sam wakes up and his heart doesn't work.

The thing about Hell is that nobody tells you what happens after.

There are things it can do to a body.

Things it can shut down.

This is a story about when hearts don't fail (and when they fucking do).

HeartVerse is a joint endeavor by

shangrilada and

familybizness and you can view the masterlist here.

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Lightning

Hanged, Drawn, and Quartered (A Sam Winchester Mini-Bang, 2017)

Nobody's Home

Genesis

Who Are You?

FIC: THERE'S SOMEONE IN MY HEAD (BUT IT'S NOT ME) | GEN, R

Through the Seasons (A Sequel to The Longest Calendar)

The Long Calendar (mature)

Fic: Sixteen Snapshots From The House of Pachinko (Sam, Dean, gen-ish)

Locus

neoplasia

Fic: Delicate Arguments [Of Faith and Murder] (gen, PG 13, h/c)

Fic: Three Times Dean Went Crazy and One Time Sam Did

Fic: Dust & Shadow || Sam/Dean || R

WHEN YOU STUMBLE (i'll hold you up)

The Mute!Cas Verse Time Stamp: One Life With One Dream On Repeat Part 5

Convergence (2/?)

Convergence (1/?)

HeartVerse

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