ohsam | Fic:The world ends when you're dead. Until then, you got more punishment in store - 1/1

Title: The world ends when you're dead. Until then, you got more punishment in store.
Author:

alphabet26
Characters: Sam
Rating: PG-13
Category: Gen, Angst
Word Count: 600ish
Spoilers: Season 4
Notes: Written for this prompt on

spngenlove's h/c comment fic meme: So when Castiel gives Dean the Colt, Sam has a plan. Shoot Lucifer, and then shoot himself. Written before season 5 actually started, so quite jossed. I tweaked the prompt a little to be set after season 5, after they've defeated Lucifer. Title taken from "Deadwood." Heavy on the hurt, low on the comfort. My bad.
Warnings: Suicidal Sam
Disclaimer: I don't own anything.
Summary: He tried to imagine if Dad had just showed up at Stanford and shot him or if Dean had kept the promise he'd made Dad or if he'd had the guts to take care of it himself when he realized Dean couldn't. Why had they fought Gordon? Gordon had understood what they'd all forgotten: monsters have to be destroyed, and siblings aren't immune from turning into monsters.

The world ends when you're dead. Until then, you got more punishment in store