And this Great Blue World of Ours, Chapter 5

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Title: And this Great Blue World of Ours (Chapter 5)
Author: vail_kagami 
Beta: minviendha 
Characters (overall): Dean, Castiel, Sam, plus a number of angels and demons
Rating (overall): NC-17
Warnings (overall): violence, torture, drug use, insanity, mentions of rape
Spoilers: Going AU during episode 5.18: Point of No Return. No spoilers for season six.
Words (this chapter): 11,820
Summary: A man wakes up in a ruined wasteland, without memories, without a name, without knowing the strange guy who claims he used to be an angel, or that he once had a little brother. All he knows is that the world is dying, everyone is lying to him and that somehow, somewhere, something went terribly wrong. Because someone said Yes when they should have said No, and someone else paid the price.

Masterpost

He sat down on the side of the bed and touched the forehead of the man lying on it, finding the skin hot and dry like the air. “Sam,” he said softly. “I am back.”


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Comments

[phx69.livejournal.com]

Wow - a powerful and heartbreaking chapter. Lucifer. Micheal. The names really are only the difference. I like how things are beginning to click into place now and that Dean is finally beginning to understand. Awesome update.

[vail-kagami.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[sinka.livejournal.com]

Oh God... I know I wanted more Sammy but that interlude was so incredibly painful to read. Sam has suffered for so long a lot more than I could have ever imagined.

It breaks my heart how people is using him as a weapon, how himself think he is worthless unles he is fighting and letting himself turning a demon a drop of blood at a time, how he is insisting that Cas should care for other humans outisde Sam and Cas, but at the same time he believes he is not worth that same care...

But the worst was the withdrayal. Sam trapped inside his mind fighting lucifer for days!! And eventhough he must have lost all hope by now he still calls for Dean when he needs comphort! a comphort he's never going to get.

When that stupid man killed him I was not as forgiving as Cas. I wanted that selfish son of a bitch to die!! They want Sam with them to save them, but they don't want to deal with the consequences, well, fuck them!! Poor Sam has spent a year in hell suffering again!

I wondered about the scars in the body too. But that Lucifer would only return Sam to life with the bare minimun to torture him makes a lot of sense. And Michael deciding not to let him into heaven... my hate for both Lucicer and Michael doesn't know bound!!

I suspected, but now I understand even better what Castiel did. He gave Sam peace, or at least as much peace as he has had in centuries! Being dead and an spirit is a mercy!

About Dean, well, you really have me worried about the rape. I don't want to believe it was him either, I'm *nearly* sure it wasn't him but I can't imagine anything worst for Sam, anything that would break him more deeply. Just thinking about Michael pretending to be Dean to get close to Sam, how happy would Sam be, and then "Dean" raping him and hurting him. Honestly, it wouldn't surprise me if Sam asked Castiel to be killed after that...

An you TEASE!!! I was *so* sure Sam's name was the key to Dean's memories!! and for a moment it seemed like it worked!! but still nothing...

I wonder if the only way for Dean to get his memories is to meet Sam's soul, but that would probably be the moment Michael would possess him again (not sure if Michael needs his consent again, since he gave it once).

By the way, I'm really curous about where is Sam's soul. I hope he is dormant somewhere and not a rogue spirit, since I don't want him to become an angry spirit. Although, if this is the case he could probably give Dean some beating and I'm all for that right now!!

Well, at least Dean is trusting Castiel more and more, some of his instinc is not totally gone, but after reading what Sam has gone through I'm not sure I'm going to be able to forgive him. Well... maybe when he makes it up to Sam and the angels are dead..

This chapter has been heartwrenching, difficult to read, made me burst into tears several times and so intense... I don't remember reading any spn fic that has sucked me in so hard. Honestly, I'm kind of scared of what's in store for Sam in the next chapters but I can't wait to read them! I know I said it before, but thank you *very* much for this masterpiece!!

[vail-kagami.livejournal.com]

Dean's "trigger" is going to be something very simple, and very obvious.

The rape happened a long time before Sam was killed by Cas. More about that later.

And the soul is... well, I'm not telling! Heh. It'll be a while before that reveal, though.

Thank you once again for the wonderful comment! Wow, they keep getting longer, don't they? Not that I mind - I'm always looking forward to them.

[sinka.livejournal.com]

*hangs her hed in shame* Yep, I noticed that too...

I tend to take notes about what I want to tell while I'm reading each chapter! and since it had so many information about Sammy I had a lot of things to say!

I promise I'm trying to be concise, but I cannot guarantee my comments will be much shorter it since the story keeps getting better and better every chapter!

[vail-kagami.livejournal.com]

Oh, don't worry about it! I love your comments!

Some of the chapters to come won't have any Sam in them, anyway. (Except for further information via Castiel, of course.) Altogether, I have only four flashbacks like this planned.

[marziebarz.livejournal.com]

Oh, God, I was waiting eagerly to see what happened to Sam and Cas while Dean was being an angel condom and now that I know I don't want to! Oh man, I don't know what was more heartbreaking, Sam's situation as a whole (JFC the kid just can't catch a break, can he) or Cas trying so hard to make things easier for his friend. And then there's confirmation that Cas was the one to kill Sam, and after the interlude it was like "OH GOD CAS, SAM, I WANT TO GIVE YOU A HUG FOR THE REST OF ETERNITY." Although I must admit that Cas is making a smart move keeping the location of Sam's soul from Dean, because it is a proven fact that Dean does not think rationally when it comes to his brother.

Oh man, this fic has me so beyond hooked and I can't wait for more. THIS IS SO SO SO GOOD I AM ON THE EDGE OF MY METAPHORICAL SEAT. If I were on the edge of my literal seat I'd probably get reeeeeeeally uncomfortable before the next update haha.

[vail-kagami.livejournal.com]

Glad you like it!
Yeah, Cas knows what he's doing. And Dean doesn't. Which makes for a dangerous situation.
Next update comes in a week from now.