Ships: Sam/Jess, verging on gen
Warnings: unreliable narrator, psychological horror, body horror, discussion of past possession, reference to past torture
Summary: Jessica Moore comes back to life. She isn't what Sam expected.
Author's note: Set after 12x03. I wrote this for the sammybigbang and it has beautiful accompanying art by amberdreams.
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**Note: Because this happened last year, before anyone asks, I know it says Destiel and all but Sam's very much a primary character. Anyone who knows me also knows that I always
Title: Kiss Me, Kill Me
Fandom/Genre: SPN/murder mystery, angst, romance, action, hurt/comfort
Pairing (s): Dean/Castiel, Sam/Jess, Sam/Brady
Word Count: 70k
Warnings: character death (major and minor), mentions of non-con, abuse, gore, violence, sex, language, suicide, mental illness
Summary: Dean and Cas are like any other regular married couple living a happy life at Tyngsborough, Massachusetts. They have a great life. Dean’s running a diner, Cas is finally getting recognised for his new novel series, and both of them are damned proud of Sam who’s landed a great job at a law firm. Basically, everything in their lives is just how they want it to be. However when a serial killer dubbed the Creature starts to wreak havoc across the country, specifically hitting Tyngsborough twice, the town grabs the attention of the FBI. Special Agent Victor Henriksen has been investigating this case for a year with no good results. Frustrated that the Creature seems to be slipping his grasp each time, he gets himself to Tyngsborough, determined to catch the killer this time. His investigations lead him to the Winchester family, thus marking the beginning of everything that starts going wrong in the Winchesters' lives.
Notes: "I made this over three months ago and forgot to post it on LJ" should be my motto, and understood with every piece of art that I post. Anyway. I listen to too much Fleetwood Mac. Enjoy.
Full graphic @ my LJ.
Warnings: character death and lots of sadness
Notes: It's from the samwinchesterbigbang! Thanks again to my artist who made such wonderful artwork. You can find it on AO3 and ff.net! Links below.
Summary: "It's hard to explain, what if feels like to just — stop being whole. I remember thinking about it a lot, when Dad and Dean started actually letting me go on hunts, you know...? I wondered what pain felt like to them, when they don't have the chemicals and nerves for it, no bodies to replicate the feeling. I wondered what tethers them to that kind of hurt, instead of running away from it."
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Story: 1626, Eldridge Street
Warnings: Swearing, references to mental illness, suicide attempt, panic attacks, a bit of sex which is non-graphic
"Going away for the holidays, Sam?"
"Yeah. My brother and I are taking a road trip to Kansas. We grew up in Lawrence."
What was supposed to be a light, fun reunion with some old family friends over the holidays turns into something worse for Sam and Dean when their past creeps up on them. Sam realises there are things tucked away in his mind that he doesn't want to remember. Unfortunately, when it comes to this particular train-wreck, there might not be a way out of it for either him or Dean.
This is Sam's journey through rediscovering himself, his family, and a little bit of love. Most importantly, this is Sam's journey through finding his Christmas miracle.
[Non-hunters AU with Art TA!Sam and pre-med!Dean]
Fic Masterpost: AO3
Art Masterpost: Tumblr|LJ
Word Count 1585
Author's Notes: Thank you to my lovely beta's- winchestersloved and patchworkgirlfriend!
Summary: Season 7/8 AU. Sometimes an imaginary Dean is better than no Dean at all.
Genre: Angst, Het
Pairing/Characters: Sam/Dr Cara; Sam, Cara Roberts, Dean Winchester (peripheral)
Word Count: 4000+
Warnings: Reference to past sexual trauma; anxiety/panic attacks; heavy angst.
Summary: 'If you'd asked her yesterday, what was his name, she'd have told you she'd forgotten: told you, maybe, that she never knew it at all. That guy? she'd have said. The sex-in-my-office guy? Yeah. It wasn't really a "names" situation.' // Sam reconnects with Dr Cara, some years later. He's changed.
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Title: A Little Extra
Genre: Domestic Fluff / Angst / Comfort
Warnings: mention of hell trauma, mentally-altered Sam due to said trauma
Notes: This is some juicy comfort fic of sorts to the hurt that was The Long Calendar! It takes place after the second part of the verse, Through the Seasons (where said date is mentioned, but we never get to see him go on it, booo). It features a Sam first-person POV, because I wanted to give it a shot and see if I could. Plus, Dean’s POV would be him in a far cafe booth being unable to hear anything, hahaha. This one’s for you, anon requester!! Cross-posted from tumblr. You'll wanna read The Long Calendar and Through the Seasons first, probably.
Summary: Sam cleans up, determined to keep up normal appearances, and finally goes on that date.
“Sam,” Dean’s voice wriggles, humming like busted eardrums after an explosion, “Stop unbuttoning your shirt, man. I just got you looking like a model. I mean, as long as we cover your face, she’ll totally be sold on your look.”
Dean’s got a point. I rub my beard, and it scratches across my skin. My fingers’re ugly, too, but I can’t cut my fingers off like I can my beard; kinda need those. I do a lot around the house nowadays, and if I don’t have any fingers, I can’t take Bixy for a walk. Still, I’m just saying, a smooth face is probably preferred.
“I should shave,” I say.
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Features some sick!Sam and some Madison/Sam.
"Madison sits calmly at the diner with a pen at her teeth and a laptop in front of her, getting herself lost and distracted by the hum of conversation and the smell of coffee beans; she loves this place, enjoys the sort of isolated togetherness, if that at all makes sense, even if her guard is always up (because when it comes to matters of restraining orders, it still pays to be watchful). It’s 4:30 and she still hasn’t even breached the bulk of reading through the whirlwind of essays and Q&A’s that her students are too certain are concocted simply as torture.
Maybe if she hadn’t caught sight of a familiar hulking figure in her peripheral, she would have had a better chance at being professional today. Someone’s ordering a coffee — someone who’s mane you could spot from pretty far away. She couldn’t help but smile at the thought, watching the oh-so-familiar man step aside, fiddle with his vest and coat as he anticipated the caffeine."
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Sam nods. "Sam sounds like a sharp name. Sounds like you could bleed out on it. You said it was mine?"
"... Yeah. It's yours."
Sam hums, looking down at the bandages, at Dean and then his battered fingertips, individually wrapped and cared for. "Sounds like a bad word."
Sam never forgot Dean's name. It's the one thing that never seemed to change.
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Warnings: Please see masterlist post.
Chapter word count: 2,000+
Warnings: Sad stuff from the Cage, pain, misery, mild gore and dark themes, the usual. There may be other warnings for later chapters, and I'll warn for them on each update should they crop up. There's a lot of Sam whump as well! And some unpleasant mental/emotional pain for a child in the story, so if little kids hurting (especially mentally or emotionally) makes you uncomfortable, might wanna skip out on this 'verse.
Summary: Castiel takes Sam to Dean. The reunion is bittersweet.
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Lately, he barbecues. He mows the lawn. He keeps track of Sam's days in Hell.
Pairing(s)/Character(s): Sam, Dean. Sam/OC, Mentions of Sam/Dean
Disclaimer: Not mine!
Warnings: Mentions of Non con but not really of a sexual nature. Spoilers for Season 9.
Summary: Since Gadreel possessed him Sam has struggled with issues of consent. He no longer wants his brother sexually and rejects even the smallest of touches. Can the brothers, still struggling to come together emotionally, ever surmount these problems or will it tear them apart good?
A/N Written for ‘Oh Sam’s’ Birthday Comment meme – the original prompt from De_Nugis which was Sam and Dean repair their brotherly relationship after Gadreel, but Sam doesn't want to resume their sexual relationship. For the time being, with the accumulation of violations, he doesn't want to invite anyone across his body boundaries, period, but even if that changes, that's no longer a possibility for him with Dean. How do he and Dean work out proximity and forgiveness in the shadow of a no longer tenable past involvement? If you wish, let Sam go on to a tentative sexual relationship with someone else (Cas or not!dead!damn!it!Kevin or Jody would be my favorite picks), and look at how Sam and Dean's relationship weathers that development. Basically, I want to see Sam's sexuality impacted by his experience of body/self/consent violations, combined with post-wincest Sam n Dean.
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Rating: Mature to be safe, though Teen+ may be acceptable
Characters: Castiel, Sam (will have others later on)
Word Count: 1,000+
Warnings: Sad stuff from the Cage, pain, misery, mild gore and dark themes, the usual. There may be other warnings for later chapters, and I'll warn for them on each update should they crop up. There's a lot of Sam whump as well! Aaaaand some unpleasant mental/emotional pain for a child in the story, so if little kids hurting (especially mentally or emotionally) makes you uncomfortable, might wanna skip out on this 'verse.
Summary: Castiel flies to retrieve Sam from the Cage - but when he flees with Sam, something goes horribly awry.
Author's Note: This'll be the first real chapter story I've done for SPN, and I'm a little nervous! But I got the idea in my head and it wouldn't suffice as a short story, so I'm gonna give it my best. I'll be setting up a Masterlist for the Born Again Verse when chapter one is completed; it has a rough outline already, so it probably won't take too long. Dean and Castiel will be major POVs for a while, though I may bring in other characters or outside POV.
Castiel claws through darkness and grit and blood, celestial wings clenched against his back so that he dare not gorge them on jagged bone and metal and a palpable despair.
( 3 Sam H/C fics )
Pairings include mild Wincest, brief mentions of past underage!Sam/Caleb, Sam/Jess (1 small dream/flashback scene), Sam/Ruby2.0, Sam/OMC (present).
Brief outline: It's set between seasons 3 & 4 when Dean is still in Hell. After hooking up with Ruby, Sam is ambushed by some hunters who (thinking he is a vampire) plan to execute him. He is saved by a spell cast from a different time and place that transports him to a world where slavery is the norm. (Think medieval England as a time period).
If this is of interest to anyone PM me or comment here and I can send a more detailed outline, prologue (about 3500 words) and the first part of Ch 1 (about 8000) Total fic at this stage is about 70,000 but that could increase or decrease as I do edits and rewriting.
Ideally, I'd love to find someone who I can toss ideas at on a very frequent basis (ie at least weekly, if not every couple of days) and get fairly quick feedback on. As 1st drafts aren't due til May 1, in-depth beta isn't a high priority yet but I'd still like feedback on a fairly regular basis.
PS: Mods, no idea if I've tagged this properly. Please let me know if it needs fixing.
Words / Rating: 2400 words / NC-17 for sex
Warnings: alpha/beta/omega dynamics, heat sex, knotting, intersex genitalia
Summary: A few hours ago, Jo Harvelle punched Sam's brother in the nose. Now she's offering to help Sam through his much-belated first heat, and he's too miserable to refuse.
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Rating: R for somewhat violent sex, bondage, dom/sub, language, violence, death
Genre: het, outsider pov, emotional h/c, comfort sex, angst
Characters: Sam, Dean, OFC
Spoilers: Takes place in the early second half of S8, after Sam has started the trials but before he's become to weak to fight effectively.
Summary: The tall guy she was supposed to lure to a hotel room and roofy seemed so sweet and innocent, such an easy mark, but he turns out to be something else entirely once she finds herself instead roofied and tied up in his bed--someone dangerous and inescapable ...
Despite the warnings, what you really need to look out for with this story is the emotional intensity--hopefully, it will make you cry (in a good way, of course). But the sex never gets too graphic or disturbing. It was a hard story to write, and it's a hard story to tag, because it doesn't fit into any of the usual categories.
He seemed like a nice boy, and such an easy play ...